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i'm scared.
molly wants me to apply to albertson's today at sixxxxx.
my parents want me to get a job, so i can get a car.
i sort of want a job.
but cesar's leaving for college, and a job means that i can't spend as much time with him.
:/

urgh.

i still feel freaking HORRIBLE about what i said yesterday about cheddar.
omg.
it makes me want to curl up and die.
but i seriously couldn't hear him talk anymore. he was acting too much like rick.

i hate when people force me to make them my priority.
if i want to talk to you that badly, i'll talk to you.
you can't force me to. and the people that are trying are seriously getting on my last nerves.
speaking of, we've been trying to get a new phone for me for about a week, and it's a pipe dream.
maybe when i get my license renewed, i can drive myself somewhere and get one. because this is driving me up a wall.

hahah molly send me pictures of us! (haha i'll put some halloween pictures up as bait :D)
and me and cesar's down syndrome love ;]

i started actually looking at colleges last night. it was scary. i'm really excited though--i just hope i can get in. i know i'm intelligent enough and everything, but honestly, i don't try. and i should. oh well. my grades are pretty good as is. i really want to get into UF. i've wanted to forever, but i just found out it has the only veterinary school in florida--an added bonus.

i want to take my ACT again. i got a really good score on it (27),according to my dad, but i want an excellent one. AND i have to take the SAT.
planning for the future is so stressful.
especially because i have to act on my plans.

ahhh i'm going to apply :[!